1 month and counting!

So Serafina Satsuki made her appearance on May 30th 2010 at 11:30pm just 30 minutes off my birthday 4 days over !!! Sakamoto asked if I wanted to hold on I told him to bugger off!! Contractions started around 2pm on sunday and I managed to hold off going to Aiku until 7:30pm so that I could make sure everyone had eaten their tea including Rieko her mum cliff and the monster!!! We all cabbed it up there with c doing heavy breathing with mommy!!! They took me off for a little fiddle to discover I was alrady 8cm dilated hurrah!!! It didn't hurt so bad this time and they reckoned I would go into pushing not so long so I was praying Sakamoto would get in his posh car and get there super quick. He came and I was doing ok so he went away then came back and said I needed to break my waters. I said NOOOOO but he did it anyway. THEN the contractions really stepped up so 15 minutes later I had him back in and said DO EPIDURAL NOW!!!! He did it and 10 minutes later I was already pushing the baby out. 6 pushes and she was out but they were very very difficult pushes. She weighed in at 4.3kilos and 54cm long!!! Ouch they then left me in the delivery room ALL NIGHT on that hideous bed on a drip saying I would need to stay until came next day as afraid I would bleed like last time!!! So NO SLEEP AND EXHAUSTED In my own crap and undercarriage so hurting even with the epidural wearing off!!! Lasted only 3 days in Aiku as the woman I HAD to share with (all single rooms gone) kept opening the window at 4am !!!! ARRRRRGH. Breast feeding went much better though this time and I am still persevering now and the milk flow is much better than with C where I had bugger all. Its one month on today and c is the biggest nightmare or at least I think we are turning a corner with the jealousy stuff this week. She is helping more and not so terribly clingy and stopped saying PUT THAT BABY DOWN NOW MOMMY!!! I THROW HER AWAY!!!!

Only positive side is I lost 11 kilos in 3 weeks!!! Crazy I know I weigh less than before Igot preggers. better stay this way! Its just exhaustion and breast feeding I think?

Next stress is Cliffs wicked boss has called us back to chicago by the end of this year. NOOOOOO We wanted to stay for the ANA integration one more year that was the point.. Anyway now only a few months to get action plan together sigh.

Baby waking up have to run